jetski-ing

i just love yesterday.

it was fun..

more than just fun.

adoreable.

unforgetable.

FANTASTIC!

well, chai saved my life. she came at the very last minutes.
we went to Pulay Ayer by boat and jetski.
JETSKI-ING all the time.
island-to-island touring by jetski. just me, sulli, chai and steven.
looking the beautiful sceneries which couldnt be found in jakarta.
right away rp went after us.
racing by jetski where steven and chai fall down.
laugther and laughter as steven had a difficulty to rise to the top jetski.
no problem.
it was still fun and unusual holiday.

YOU KNOW WHAT

I WANT MORE

MORE VACATION JUST LIKE THIS

WHERE I COULD SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY FRIENDS

BEFORE IM LEAVING

I LOVE BEING AROUND THEM

please stay a little bit longer

bulit upon the sand

*ahahahahha
*selamat menikmati
lo juga
tarik ulur
lama kali
*gw cuman berjalan ikutin arus
deres kali
*ya mau gmn lg
ya seperti waktu itu di mobil
harus meng..
apa ya namany
kata lain maklumi
*apa maksudny nih?

one needs to understand the other to become one

*susahlah buat kita
*gw udah seneng kok

understand, accept and go

this is your starting line

dari dia juga udah responsifkan?
*ga bisa ditebak, gw juga jadi males untuk memulai
ya itulah
po po po po poker face
*nah itu gw benci
tp yang jelaskan feelingny mutual
*lu aja lah
baru baru ini gw baca wuote bagus

when it comes to love, its never too late, even when we have to wait

tapiiii

when it comes to wait, its never to love, even when we are not late

tancap gas, jangan liat kebelakang, jangan menyerah

anything is posssible to those who believe

... then peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. Matthew 14:29

*maksudny apa?
Peter berjalan di air karena dia PERCAYA
terlebih, karena dia PERCAYA dia BERBUAT
maka dari PERBUATAN dia itulah dia BERJALAN DI ATAS AIR, yakni sesuatu yang MUSTAHIL
*tetep aja gw ga tau harus gmn
itu sesuatu yang harus lu sadari sendiri
*baiklah, gw renungkan

yang jelas, jangan sampai lu membuat alasan untuk tidak melakukan

udah pernah denger kata-kata; semakin butek semakin jelas?
*belom, emang beneran ada?
adaa
di saat lo berenang dalam air butek dan semakin gelap semua menjadi jelas
*gw lagi di air yang keruh mungkin, serba nanggung
salah
kalau air semakin butek, semakin jelas airny kotor
siapa suruh nyebur got
*gw ga ngerti maksudny
ya lu renungkan malam ini
renungan malam ini adalah tentang berbuat
*jadi kalo gw tau hal tersebut ga berguna buat gw dan gw terlibat di situ
*ya udah itu derita gw, udah tau ga berguna berani coba-coba
*gitu
salaah
kalo kesimpulan lo begitu, mungkin harus renungkan cara lo lihat kehidupan
coba lo telen baek-baek dulu
nanti kalo masih enggak bisa ketebak, gw kasih tahu

FRANS

kemarin (beberapa jam yang lalu) teman terkonyol kita berulang tahun. FRANS WIJAYA.
sehari sebelum hari-H, kami semua sudah memikirkan rencana apa untuk ngerjain dia. tapi ga ada keputusan akhir sampe bsk paginy. tanpa disengaja, saya dan yahya berpikir untuk mengajak frans ke sklh dan membawany pergi ke suatu tempat untuk bersenang-senang. keputusan terakhir kami adalah STRAWBERRY CAFE, bermain jumanji..

sebelum bertemu dengan teman-teman, saya harus pergi makan siang dengan nyokap dan vitro di semanggi. setelah selesai, kue tart medium bread talk dibeli sebagai surprise frans. ahh, merasa sangat tidak enak kepada rp, steven, sulli, yahya, py, arno, babas dan frans yang menunggu saya selama hampir 2jam.. maafkan saayaaa...

cukup terkejut ketika tau, kami hanya naik satu mobil. PAJERO SPORT. steven di depan beserta rp yang nyetir. di baris ke dua ada sulli, saya, yahya dan py.. dan bagian terkahir ada babas, arno dan frans. setelah menjemput saya, kami pergi ke rumah steven untuk ambil mobil dan ketemu dengan lia, chai dan felia..

di strawberry cafe, kami hanya main beberapa permainan. uno stacko, taro bola air di atas tisue basah, dan pompa balon.. sial rasany balon tersebut pecah di tangan saya. sebagai hukuman, saya harus menari di atas meja selama lagu diputar. sungguh maluu dan melelahkan. yet it was so freakin fun..
kemudin, frans, babas, nesya, chai dan lia bermain jumanji. cukup mengejutkan mereka tidak memakan lama di atas.. ckckck.. dan sebagai penutup, kejutan trakhir buat frans.. polisi2an seolah2 menangkap dia dan memborgol tangan dia ke kursi sehingga ga bisa lari.. spray memenuhi badan dia, putih putih dan putih..

perjalanan pulang juga tidak kalah mengesankan, babas dikerjain sama rp. kursi tempat dia duduk di buat jadi panas. seketika saja babas panik karna pantat dan paha dia panas. sulli dan rp menakuti2i dia kena ambeiyen *tidak tau cara tulis*. anehnya dia percaya dan berpikir mungkin dia ngompol. kemudian direvisi kalo tidak mungkin ngompol, mungkin mencre*. LOL. setelah sampai rumah saya, babas langsung mengecek 'kesehatan badan' dia. kami hanya bisa tertawa terbahak-bahak di mobil tidak tahan melihat tingkah polah babas..

what a great day fellas!!

im the leader!

i have been trying to be strong. i was trying not to cry in front of them. i tried not to give up that easily with those 'devils'.
now, its just a waste.
precisely, this morning i felt at the peak of the tiredness. i give up, really really give up..

seeing that stupid boy, who doesnt want to speak out with me, sitting nicely in front of me who was really panic and busy that time. he didnt want to help. WHO THE HELL ARE YOU? LEADER? i guess you are not. saying your 'pembina' is not good for us? you are the one who lead us? ARE YOU SURE? you dont even lead me! I LEAD MY OWN WAY. YOU DONT EVEN CARE WHATS WRONG WITH ME. i believe you never think about me! you just care to the ones who SUPPORT THOSE STUPID THINGS YOU DO! hell yeah! YOU ARE PERFECT in a bad way..

and you think im scared of you???????????????????
NOT ANY MORE.. im grwoing up!!
im stronger than before. i stand in the right path. NOT LIKE YOU stupid!

satu hal yang gw bisa pastikan!
LU ADALAH MASALAH TERBESAR DALAM HAL INI. BUKAN KARNA TEMEN-TEMEN GW DAN PILIHAN GW UNTUK BERHURA-HURA. TP TOLONG DONG, HATI LU ITU KALO GA BUAT TUHAN, GA USAH DEH ADA DI SITU. GW UDH BERUSAHA UNTUK GA NGMNG KASAR MA LU. TP CUKUP TAU UNTUK HAL-HAL YANG LU UDAH LAKUIN KE GW. GA AKAN LAGI GW TAKUT MA LU. MUSUHIN GW. GO AHEAD. GW GA PEDULI. KALO GW BISA MUNDUR DARI RETREAT, DENGAN GAMPANG GW LEPAS DAN GW KASIH SMUA UANG YANG LU BUTUH. SEKALIAN KELEBIHAN UANG BUAT LU HURA-HURA SAMA TEMEN-TEMEN SEPERJUANGAN LU.

I PROMISE MYSELF FOR NOT BEING UNDER HIS CONTROL ANYMORE.

IM THE LEADER. YEAH I AM! YOU JUST A FOOL!

extra energy

OH GOD..

IM EXHAUSTED!! REALLY I AM..

GIVE ME EXTRA ENERGY PLEASE...

P.S. : exhausted in my mind & my heart

I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

songong lu!

you asked me to much.

jangan selalu salahin gw donk buat segala hal yang terjadi.
berkaca lah tentang diri lu sendiri.
emang selama ini lu yang paling bener.
kalo lu merasa akhir-akhir ini lu yang bener, sebelumny, hari-hari sebelum HARI ini, lu pernah buat SALAH gak?
GAK PERNAH? mungkin lu ga sadar!

jangan meminta gw untuk memulai kembali kalau dari lu sendiri SONGONG! atau lu sendiri bikin gw CAPE sama lu!

i wanna linger, a little longer

ah shoes! cant move in febraury 2011..

im hoping for it actually.

I WANNA LINGER, 

A LITTLE LONGER

so it would be FOUR months LEFT for me 

short! VERY SHORT!!

i want you to be here and there with me! ALL. <3

P.S. : 
i think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long.
if we're in each other's dreams, we can play together all night.

your love is my drug

Maybe I need some rehab
Or maybe just need some sleep
I've got a sick obsession
I'm seeing it in my dreams
I'm looking down every alley
I'm making those desperate calls
I'm staying up all night hoping
Hitting my head against the wall

What you've got boy is hard to find
I think about it all the time
I'm all strung out, my heart is fried
I just can't get you off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love

Won't listen to any advice
Mama's telling me I should think twice
But love to my own devices
I'm addicted it's a crisis
My friend's think I've gone crazy
My judgement's getting kinda hazy
My steeze is gonna be affected
If I keep it up like a lovesick crackhead

What you've got boy is hard to find
I think about it all the time
I'm all strung out, my heart is fried
I just can't get you off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love

I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me
But crash and crave you when you leave
So I've got a question
Do you wanna have a slumber party in my basement?
Do I make your heart beat like an 808 drum?
Is my love your drug?
Your drug, huh your drug, huh your drug
Is my love your drug?

Because your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
Because your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love

Hey, hey, so...
Your love, your love, your love, your love
Is my drug... "I like your beard"

nonton bareng

saturday super fantastic!

as we have planned, yesterday was the time when 'the band' and me were going to meet fena; gave her the present. so after i got call from sulli, i drove my car to his house since my driver was being used by vitro. it was my first time driving alone that far. yet, it didnt take a long time for sulli, steven, rp and yahya to realize i brought car and gotta drive back home alone. since then, sulli asked me to go home and put back my car while steven humbly asked to drive. yeah. perhaps it was just 10 minutes (max) in sulli's house and us (steven and me) went back to my house. after that, an alphard sped directly to kuningan and stopped at PEPeNERO, cucina italiana. almost done with our dinner, fena joined us. we talked a lot about jumanji things. i guess that place was full with our laughter. 

rp gotta go to MUSRO, borobudur hotel, as his friend, chelsia had her 17th birthday party. the rest of us found out two places in borobudur, manhatten and churchil in order to 'nonton bareng'. however, the places were not OK. so finally end up at: PISA CAFE PURI. watching argentina vs nigeria. quite disappointed of messi. he had a lot of chance to make goal, none of them were success.

DEMAM NONTON BARENG MELANDA!

stop

PLEASE STOP!

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

YOU KNOW YOURSELF.

look at the sky!

after bali trip, we (class of '10) were going to bandung yesterday.. however, it wasnt just the students, our mothers joined as well.. we began our trip at 8 o'clock in the morning straight to bandung.. so sorry that i forgot the name of the restaurant where we had lunch. after lunch, rumah mode was visited. me, praisca and vidya shopped together. i only bought a t-shirt, praisca bought two, while vidya was the one who bought a lot.. its fun although the items are not really good. as me and my family will go to bandung again, so i didnt buy many things. our dinner was at the valley. what yahya said about the valley was: ROMANTIC. maybe its because he and praisca looked up at the sky, pictures every single star, imagining it was leo (lion) above there. ahahahahah.. undoubtly funny! yet, i enjoyed this time so much..

things i like: being around with friends, laughter and memories, joke and love
things i dislike: noisy, not really blend in, cant sleep, holding pee

P.S. : didnt take a lot of picture. well, my friends did. i'll post it later.

footprint

will i get bored?

with you?

as i could promise, imma try not to get bored easily with you..

you are more than a hope.. more than just a wish..

a dream that i'll catch on..

a footprint of where i stand.

perhaps it doesnt stay for a long time.

perhaps its just a blink of eyes. awhile.

well. you have given me a chance.. a chance to be who i am..

a day, two days or even more

never too late to begin something!

you!

you just stand there, waiting for me to come first

kinship

second day of 'official' holiday..
as yesterday me and my sister watched sex & the city, today me and praisca went to TA, buying some gift for fena. we were accompanied by yahya who chose the gift itself. it was quite fast. he only chose and bought, while if there were only me and praisca, we could take hours to make decision. thanks to him.. after that, we were planning to go with steven (wisata kuliner), yet arno & yahya desperately wanted to go to joglo. steven & rp didnt join. so it was only me, py, yahya, arno, sung (menyusul datangny) & babas who felt very guilty. at joglo, we ordered so many foods; pecel lele, bebek pedes, pempek, mie yogya, nasi padang, ayam goreng kriuk, various kind of dim sum, pancake, sandwice, burger, ronde jahe *yahya and sung were talking about ronde gingsen which will cost much* and many more. ohyaa, we stayed there for around 5 hours. *lama banget ya baru sadar* eating those foods and playing gaple.. our next destination was starbucks puri, again we played card. this time was poker, bullshit, blackjack.. 2.5 hours has passed.. FUN AND FUN.. thats what i felt with them..

thanks guys for this tuesday..

P.S: yang pimpin doa makan adalah sebastian.. :) who's next???? i love this new tradition, feels more homy & kinship

you appear just like a dream

YOU APPEAR JUST LIKE A DREAM!!

i never imagine how could i have best person like you guys..
i never thought how could i come close with you love.
i never know that time will teach me this far.
all i know is i need to go through this happily!!

at first, a good friend is just a hope.
at first, someone to love is just a dream.
at first, memory will fade easily.

now, i found a friendship.
now, i hold someone to love.
now, those memory stuck in my heart..

thanks for being there for me.
thanks for being someone to lean on.

everything goes well dear!! after graduation!!

YEAH

time speaks

Disaat kamu ingin melepaskan seseorang, ingatlah pada saat kamu ingin mendapatkannya 

Disaat kamu mulai tidak mencintainya, ingatlah saat pertama kamu jatuh cinta padanya 

Disaat kamu mulai bosan dengannya, ingatlah selalu saat terindah bersamanya 

Disaat kamu ingin menduakannya, bayangkan jika dia selalu setia 

Saat kamu ingin membohonginya, ingatlah disaat dia jujur padamu  

Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani 

Jangan terlalu perhitungan 

Jangan hanya mau menang sendiri 

Jangan suka sakiti sesama apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita 

Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih 

Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah 

Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa... 

Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan... 

Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan 

Tak ada dendam yang  yang tak bisa terhapus.

in between

Graduation on FRIDAY..:]

since we all have prepared for the day, we got so excited..

for me it was quite a rush..

so, lets we begin.

waking up in the morning, fena has arrived at my house while i havent took a shower yet.. so in less than 30 minutes, i was ready to go... YIPIIII... what a friday! i was driving from my house to school.. having rehearsal for about 2 hours and my friends' parents brought us pizza for lunch.. however, some of the girls have gone home since they wanted to go to salon. while me here, waiting for fena who was still eating and having chat with some other boys. it was already 2.30 perhaps when i drove sung home. i bet he and fena were so afraid and 'tegang' while i was driving.. i told them for not allowing me drive in a 'jalan sempit'. but they insist me to do so. ok! bring it on.. i didnt know what did they think.. :( if i could put some stamp in my car, i would probably state 'AMATIR' at the back of my car. hoping that people would not come closer with me!! *hanya mimpi*

after arrived at the lutuye salon, me did 'cuci blow' and fena cut her hair (shorter and shorter). already 4 p.m. RUSHING HOME!! i drove with 'no brain'. *yang penting cepet sampe dan pergi lagi ke sekolah* took a shower, did some make up for my eyes, changed clothes and came in to the car. this time, fena had to drive. *ngebutttt.* ciuunngg ciuuunngg.. 5.30 still at meruyaa.. oh my gosh.. im dying.. well, thanks God yang lain juga belum sampe..

it was my big day!! kita semua lulus... nesya got the highest GPA while me only got GPA of 3 (overall). nevermind, tetep kepala 3 intinyaa... thanks God.. :] everything went well except for the nesya's lateness.. tapi semua terobati dengan kata-kata nesya yang sangat menyentuh, sampai akhirny saya tak bisa menahan air mata.. thanks nesh.. <3 we sang two songs together; in my parent's eyes which made teardrop on my cheek & buka semangat baru-ingatlah hari ini as the last song. for the closing, yahya, sulli, babas, amanda and fena had a band performance. it was good and entertaining..

again and again, as i delayed posting my story, PICTURES SPEAK MORE THAN WORDS..

2009-2010

anak band :]

p

praisca menemukan keluarga baru

m

kevin sungkarto

sullivandy susanto 

andhika yahya

r

ryan priyatna

p

praisca yudianto

amanda maringka

 

unfortunately there was nor after party like what we have been planning before.

it was just me, fena, albert, sulli, rp, yahya, arno and frans who continued to go to EX. 

we stay at ebira pizza, drunk some flavour beer and a weirdo pizza (yahya ordered). oh yaa, fena and sulli were having beer battle *forgot the name, sorry*. fena won! so sulli got to drink around 13 glasses of beer alone. 

 

the time is yet to come

we have been graduated!!

YEAAAAHHHH.... we should be happy for it. on the other hand, something has been missing. 

TRUE FRIENDS.. i dont know either they think we are true friends or not, but for me, 

YOU are the BEST..

best for B.E.S.T!!

c

congrats for us!! <3 

tunas muda international school '10

this is what i call, B.E.S.T

 thank you for the best 2 years you've given to me

d

deep deep inside my heart, i miss you guys

best luck for all of you 

no matter how distance apart us, i am sure there will be a way of bringing us together again.

see you in the future.

the time is yet to come. 

more than just a word

heyhooo...
im apologizing that i was too lazy to post my entries while i was in balii...
at first, i cant wait for the sharing moment.. well, lately was the most hectic day for me and some other friends. we gotta practice graduation songs.. so those story wont come through my mind..

if you desperately want to know more what was happened there, you could visit http://lukmandjajanesya.blogspot.com/2010/05/always-and-forever.html.

so ENJOY!!!

before the pleasurable trip

me & amanda at Kuta 

(love this picture so much)

are we twins? 

taking photo at taman ayun

so the party wont stop, till we come in

(pool party at the villa)

more than just a word <3 <3