DAY 16

dear 31 october 2010

sunday service at the rocks. =) afterward, we had our lunch at batavia corner restaurant. it is an indonesian restaurant in perth. hel* yeahhh. finally got bumbu kacang within gado-gado and batagor. even though it didnt really taste good like in indo itself, yet i kinda love it. miss indonesian food so much. *droll*

P.S.: haus pelayanan di gereja :s 

DAY 15

dear 30 october 2010

nothing to do. stay at my house all day long.
YOU KNOW WHAT! I REALLY NEED TO DIET.
THERE ARE MANY PEOPLE WHO TOLD ME IM GETTING FATER HERE.
AND I HATE PEOPLE PUSHING ME TO EAT!

P.S.: by november ended, i need to lessen my weight for 4kg!

DAY 14

dear 29 october 2010

late post (again and again) =(

morning class for management. well, at least today i was with anton, make me more comfortable. there were about 5 indonesian student (finally), but yeah the teacher was so boring. i could sleep probably. thanks God the class ended a way far earlier. going to the second hand book shop to buy some books. unfortunately i could only find one out of three books needed. poor me.

what a great afternoon i had. going to the Fremantle market with my CS (praisca, ko moses and ivanna). ramen super duper great as my lunch, and another roll of potato.  

dumpling noodle (?)

twist potato

i felt very very full till my tummy was gonna explode. *droll* but yeah, i love ramen like right now. we continued our journey to the other places, taking some photos and going to maritime museum. oh yaaa one of the australian old jail as well. it was really great, suddenly forgot my boring day and having fun with my new surrounding. thanks God. 

 in front of the australian old jail

 another side of Fremantle 

  fremantle market

at last i joined my friends' youth in GPDI. i like the new church, i like the services. but i kinda dislike the new friends. some of them to be realistic. they arent really fit with my personality. as praisca said that one of them seems to like me, all of the sudden i made a great wall to avoid him. LOL. after the youth service was ended, astri had her birthday celebration in singapore restaurant. there were 10 menus which were so delicious. yipuuuuuu =) i arrived at my home at 12 o'clock, so late. what a tiring day!! 

P.S.: i miss my mom

healing is in your hand

No mountain, no valley, no gain or loss we know
could keep us from Your love
No sickness, no secret, no chain is strong enough
to keep us from Your love
to keep us from Your love

How high, how wide
No matter where I am, healing is in Your hands
How deep, How strong,
And now by Your grace I stand, healing is in Your hands

Our present, our future, our past is in Your hands
We're covered by Your blood
We're covered by Your blood

How high, How wide
no matter where I am, healing is in Your hands
How deep, How strong
And now by Your grace I stand, healing is in Your hands 

DAY 13

dear 28 october 2010

another day without bb. still questioning why my debit card has not be received yet. eerrggg.. 

I WANT BB SOON!! 

what a windy day! very difficult to stand up-right, my knees feel very week. freezing. really i am! it was very very killing when praisca and i got to wait in the bus stop. the bus didnt show up for at least 20 minutes and i barely cant breath. today schedule was shopping at the coles; buying foods, weight scale, ticket going back to jakarta and printer ink. it was really fun going to the supermarket. well, i never felt this way in jakarta. I MISS BUYING FOODS WITH MOM! now i really home sick, i miss my mom. doing many things with  her. gosh, its killing me softly. 

communication in business class was pretty much fun, although the assignments do not seem fun at all. i like the class since people are talking english. yeahhh.. :) i knew new friends from malay, saudi arabia, pakistan, zimbabwe, and china for sure. what was so surprising is i met kevin yoko tanoto, my SD friend. hihi.. so weird that we met here, in perth! so thats all for today. nothing really serious and interesting.

P.S.: i miss my home!

XOX

DAY 12

dear 27 october 2010

late post again. yesterday i was crazy about america's next top model cycle 14, which made me cant stop watching it. the result was i skipped blogging. anyway, yesterday was not a special day for sure. i woke up in the morning, cleaning my room, washing my shirt and pants as well as chatting with my daddy :)

what was funny about this day is praisca broke her lunch box. she put it in the microwave to heat the food along with the box lid. and booom, PEYOT!! so she couldnt bring her lunch and i decided to 'over a hand'. coming to the campus earlier and bring her lunch. yeah, as the lunch box couldnt be opened, i decided to make a peanut butter bread. ahhahah.. unfortunately, she couldnt be met. 

yes i made a new friend, coming from china. since today class was EDP, stand for English Development Program, almost all the students who were coming are not good in english. they have to think first and suddenly pause their words (dont know how to say it). sometimes its a bit confusing, yet make me talked english all day long. i enjoy this class a lot. there were other overseas students who came from hongkong and korea. again im the only indonesian student there.

P.S.: really cant wait for DECEMBER!

xoxox

daydreaming

someone who could be a shoulder to lean on.

someone to be proud of.

someone to be  trusted.

pancake :)

this hair

im dying for her hair

DAY 11

dear 26 october 2010

second day of college, business information system (BIS). yes i met a new indonesian student named stanley budimuljo. i didnt recognise that he was in the same church with me last sunday. all of the sudden we recalled every moments we have been through. so silly i think :)

the lecture was not really difficult, despite the fact there are many worksheet to be done each week. i used computer lab and the lecturer was quire friendly. furthermore, he spoke english clearly. thanks God. if you ask did you enjoy today class? yes i enjoy this class more. perhaps because i listened people speaking english more than mandarin. =)

as the class was over earlier, i waited for my friend (still couldnt memorise her name) at the cafe near CC building. she didnt come out and the weather was so dam* hot. so i decided to go home as she couldnt be contacted. nothing to do in my house, thats why i ended up to take a nap after lunch. what a world! while i was sleeping, ko moses called me in msn, asking for going out this evening to have a waffle at Gelare Ice Cream. around 7 p.m. he and ivana picked us. yeaaa, we were so excited till me and praisca skipped our dinner for a couple of ice cream upside the waffle. delicious! oh i could still feel the smooth of ice cream and soft waffle it provided. nyuuummmm... 

more or less 8.30, i arrived at my house. washing a t-shirt and checking for a ticket to indonesia this december. i got one; going to indo at 24 december (dawn) and back to perth at 2 january 2011 (2 a.m). yet, the price is so expensive, cost almost 800 AUD for a person. hix :'(

P.S.: i wanted cold stone and ss.. 

xox

DAY 10

dear 25 october 2010

first day of attending Curtin College, accounting managerial. gosh, there isnt any indonesian student there. most of them are malay and chinese. some are indian, vietnam as well as south africa. ;o moreover, the lecturer came from indonesia without a really good english accent. can you imagine it? thanks God the subject is not that hard. or at least i could understand all so far =) i wish everything is settling down and gonna be ok till the end of the semester. *AMIN*

class finished earlier, so with marcel, i went to the downtown (again and again) to have a lunch and chi-chat. at first i think i could fit with him, he's funny. but as we talk much about many things, i didnt really get into him. yeeeaa as a friend indeed. he is sort of a 'playing' boy. the one who like to spend his time hanging around and going home late. i just dont wanna be one of them. i prefer to stay at my home and sleep rather than spending money into unimportant things.

i dont know what did i write; not really in the mood. but i couldnt skip a day of my life. i miss my family a lot. i miss fena a lot. and i dont know why i dont even miss h**. hell noe im getting fat here. i need to be skinny!! harus!! as soon as possible.. help me to diet and dont ever push me to eat. i hate it so much!

P.S.: i miss my family and bf, fena! i miss them a lot!! and i need to be slim asap!!  


xoxoxo

DAY 9

dear 24 october 2010

a week has been passed. it is sunday and i came to another church named the rocks. it is pretty much the same as JPC in jakarta. they point out the praise and worship more. i liked the atmosphere and the homily too, despite the fact they use english language. (Y) after the sunday service was over, i attended the fellowship where they served pasta.. taste very good. well, i felt very full because of my big bunch of breakfast.. 

the four of us: me, praisca, ivana and ko moses went to the city for our 'another' lunch. we were planning to eat at the Korean Restaurant. but yeah, it closed with no reason this sunday. looking for another restaurant and ended-up at Taka, Japanese CHEEP restaurant. cheep is the best word like right now. since we are student and do not have lots of money to spend. :)

after we have done with our lunch, the girls looked at some shops for the goodies things. i dont know why ko moses never be bother accompanying us. (Y) nothing to tell anymore as me and praisca got home. we only stayed with our laptop, talking about many things and felt very very bored!!!!! gosh, i really need entertainment, like tv i guess..

P.S.: i got angry for some reason and need TV so badly!

xxooxox

DAY 8

dear 23 october 2010

special breakfast from tante betty. yes because our lovely mothers were going back. so sad. i couldnt believe imma leave without her.. eeerrrgggg. i miss her already :(

so our breakfast was french toasted with ham and cheese. i dont know why tante betty likes to add some fruits in our meal. like for the breakfast, pears were the combination of it. tasted yummy though. 

while waiting for ko moses, me and mom re-arranged my whole room so it looks nice. not that nice without her!! 

didnt take a long time till our lunch came. SUBWAY!! first time i ate it.. gosh, tasted like heaven (Y). vitro has to try it. so i decided that my portion should be him. mom brought it to jakarta. ice cream with strawberry and banana was another part of our lunch. wasn't it great? yes it was. i really wanna cry if i saw my mom. but i should not, it only makes her sad. im strong, right?? thanks God, You didnt really make me cry in the airport. even it was the saddest. thanks for the best 1 week you gave to me mom. i miss you!! like right now..

since praisca has got her debit card, the 3 of us went to garbo. signing a plan for BB and had a 'little' shopping. our day was really boring. no moms who could be a friend to talk to. nothing to do. just stayed at praisca's room, searching for good stuff at ebay and browsing for airplane ticket. gosh, it is very expensive to go home this december. i felt reluctant to my parents :( 

what is best from tonight was me, praisca and cie icha had a great conversation; so funny.. cie icha and i have a passion to be slim while praisca got to gain more weight.. LOL.. 

P.S.: i miss mamiiiiiiiiiii.. 

xoxox

DAY 7

dear 22 october 2010

sorry for the late post. last night i was totally exhausted and i wanted to spend my night longer with my mom. of course before she flies back to indonesia.. :(

at the beginning of the day, praisca and me went to curtin in order to manage our administration. afterward, we had a campus tour since nothing to do anymore; killing time. we saw the business building. there are subclass for business law. gosh, i wanna be one of them.. i have to, indeed. yeeeeaah, got a consideration to take single or double major. accounting and business law seems interesting i guess. well, i need to think it carefully. 

when we came home, ko moses has been there, waiting for us. straight forward to the bell tower, taking some pictures and had lunch at one of the best italian restaurant near the city. the place is so cosy and all the food tasted very very good... i wondered to come there for the second time. the weather was friendly too.. araluen!! there should be many flowers, yet they have been gone for the last 2 weeks. the hot weather made them 'collapse'. =)

night day was totally amazing and unforgettable. my mom, me, praisca and her mom, ko moses and ivana (his girlfriend), cie icha and ko james (her boyfriend) had a fantastic chinese food dinner at the china town. again, the food tasted delicious and made our hungry tummy full.. ;o

laughter and joke were the ones which accompany our dinner.. it was fun having a time with them and i believe this was the peak of my holiday. we continued our journey to the east park, if im not mistaken. there is a lake in between the houses and apartments. guess what! each apartment (small one) costs 1m AUD. we never stop laughing about stupid things we did and 'the moms' were freezing (angin kenceng bener). taking some picture before we went back home. WHAT A GREAT NIGHT. thanks fellas. also for the night talk we held. =p

P.S.: tomorrow gonna be the gate of my future. miss my church i dont know why. 

xoxo

DAY 6

dear 21 october 2010

second day of orientation. my day was full of fun..
i began my day with going to the chocolate factory and wine fields. it was so amazing, many delicious chocolate with various taste and wine! i didnt buy the wine though. none of my family members like it. after we finished from those two places, we had lunch at the thai restaurant near the city.. it didnt taste so delicious. nyeaaahh, my mom insisted me to eat a lot. i dont like it at all. i dont wanna be fat even i got to walk everyday.

praisca had her orientation at 1 p.m while me at 2. to make it simple, i came to the campus a bit early. despite the fact imma meet yosep at the cafe.. yet, he was difficult to be found. i went to the student central to make my health insurance. after it has done, i finally met yosep and some other friends. they introduced one new friend name marcell. he is elysie and chai's friend. ;o

at 2 the seminar began and continued with english diagnosis test as well as the enrolment. i picked some subject that im going to learn for the next 4 months. they are accounting (managerial), business information system, management and communication in business. :)
i am not really sure with those, but i got to move on. all the important things have been done as well. my student id and smart rider. the only thing that i got to organise is my health insurance. tomorrow i am going to make it clear..

today was really a tiring day. although i did not walk that much, but i felt exhausted. furthermore, i gained 2 kg within 5 days. it made me so stress. i wish i'll get slimmer in here. and its totally wrong.. please dont push me to eat more than i wanted! i dont wanna be so frustrate such this way.. its kinda annoying seeing many people ruin my diet!

P.S.: i desperately want to be slim!  


XOXO

DAY 5

dear 20 october 2010

orientation day, the first.
i was going to the college a bit early. nyeaahh, one hour earlier. so me and praisca ended-up at the nearest cafe; sat and felt freezing. i didnt know why the weather was quite different today. no sunshine at all. before we attended the orientation, we met some other indonesian friends, but they are not in CC anymore. they are university student already. nicee, taking an amazing major. accrual science, accounting & finance, food tech, engineering etc. what a perfect carrier they would have! & YES I HAVE TO BECOME A LAWYER.

the orientation itself was indeed boring. pretty much the same with MIBT MOS. anyway, i made friends with overseas students. i met malaysian, french, chinese, vietnamese, koreans and local. for the indonesian people in commerce are not that many, only 5 out of hundred i guess. so far i dont have any problem with it :) thanks God.

i am a naughty student, i know. i have skipped the workshops! 3 of them. other than attending those, i chose to meet some friends and go home earlier. lazeeehhh.. guess what? even ko james told me that curtin orientation is totally not important!! so am i that bad? ;o

tonight, i went to GRII to join the choir. it made me miss my church so bad. i wanted to go back when i used to be so active organising each events, go home late and be around my incredible friends. hope that everything is oke there. i believe God takes place in my beloved church. back to the point, every single word on those songs were fantastic and touching. despite the high tone of sopran, i like to sing along with them. they are really welcome. new thing in my life: all indonesian people here are very welcoming. YEAAYY

P.S.: i miss my church!


xxo

DAY 4

dear 19 october 2010

morning exercise at last!! walking to the nearest lake. what a good view there!
the air was so fresh even though it was pretty cold..
after i had shower, apple pie became my breakfast with another apple. healthy isnt it?

more downtown day..
anyway, we didnt use car. cie icha took us by bus and train.
it was fun, new things to learn: how to get to some different places with bus. =)
after we have arrived at Perth City Centre, we decided to go to Harbour Town. using another public bus called yellow cat. im questioning why they use cat other than a dog? kinda weird.
harbour town is like an outdoor mall with many shops there. we visited one shop to another. buying some gifts for cie icha, cie yona and fena. :) hope they would like it.

all the way long the journey, i saw many of the bus drivers are a lady. gosh, they are really tough in this rough world. i have to be one of them. well, not being a driver, but adapt their characteristics. they never give up although they have to do something hard (kerjaan pria). what a powerful person! on the other side, those male are really 'gentleman'. they use suit! so impressive and stunning :) i should have a job which require me using a proper dress.. whats that? LAWYER!! or BOSS!! yes, im living my dreams right now. i'll work hard for it! they really became my inspiration.

another lunch in the food court. i bought a bowl of laksa noodle. taste very very good. me and praisca realized that although we are in west country, we havent eaten any junk food, including burger and french fries. aside from pizza cause tante betty just gave it as our dinner. we always bought asian food. nyeaahh, we brought 'bekel' today; fried rice and banana :o

going to the Indonesia Consulate again to take our passport. oh gosh, we walked a lot today. getting to one bus stop from another was not easy. cie icha said, "deket kok. cuman jalan dari sini ke sini". in fact, it almost took 30 minutes and hell yeah it was so far. kaki sampe pegel dan tenggorokan kering kerontang. if we count all the bills for the buses, each person spent almost 10 AUD. costly!! really really!!


gilaaakkkk, hari ini udah jalan ber-kilo-kilo dan menghabiskan 100rb untuk bis doank.. capek nian daahh.. but we kinda addicted to try another way! sayangny kita selalu turun di bus stop yang salah. jadi kejauhan dan harus jalan lagii.. terus jalan terus jalan. made us hungry!!


as i didnt know how to get to our destination, i started to guess and decide. i didnt know why mom could not stop complaining and 'blaming' me. if you know, just tell us. dont let me to do it by myself. i felt tired too and if it is possible, i wanna have some rest just like you. it made me realise how lucky i was leaving in indonesia. i got everything i want,  i had mbak who take care of my room and house, i have my best boys who always take me to my favourite places with their car. i didnt need to spend some money, only sit and listening to the music, no need to drive as well. like right now, i have to walk (gak deket pula), use bus and spend much money for it. hey guys!! I MISS YOU LIKE HELL!!

done with making a back account, we went straight to the Colesz. we were going to sign a plan for blackberry. unfortunately, we have not got our student id and debit card. so it was not possible. eeerrrrggg we have walked this far and havent pee for more than an hour just to get a handphone. the result was NIHIL. it is really difficult to contact another person without handphone!! i need it soon..
i am lost here.. :(
next week please come soon.....


P.S.: i want sour sally and cold stone!

xxooxx

DAY 3

sorry for the late post.

there was a distraction last night, my laptop is kinda error :s

im frustrated since no one could fix it. so i let in on till the battery was empty.

today i used bus going to the CIC. my housemate brought us a little tour in the curtin university.

what a big campus it is. each building is located separately and quite far. 

so it could be like daily exercise every time i go there (walking around).

those bule-bule love to sit in the green grass, reading and chatting with others. while none of the asian do so.

around 11.30, praisca's cousin, Ko Moses picked us in the curtin university and drove us with his Mazda to the Indonesian consulate.

i need to declare myself, lapor diri katany.. ehehe.. afterward, we go downtown.. FINALLY. 

its not really like what i have imagined. i love the city!! many interesting shops there, aside from the pricy things. ohya, dresses in here are so feminine, full of flower with soft color. i like it though, as well as the bags. 

oooo im dying of it.. 

yet, i cant afford any bags here. cost 500k for one. gileee... find some job first!!

for our lunch, we ate at the sort of food court above the only one mall there. new atmosphere, we sat in the middle of the bule with coat. yihaaa. i imagined how if i dressed up that way with a really god job here. i wanted it so bad. Ko Moses gave us a new term; 480 for aborigine people and hobo for those who are jobless. ehehehe... all the way long downtown we laughed for the things we have been seen. it was so fun. he is kind and easy going. in the mall, i bought colokan listirk, and it costed 130k!! cuman satu pulaa.. kacau bener.. 

since Ko Moses has to picked his girlfreind, so we went to the other mall called Garden City. it is near his house. what a nice place i guess. there are many places to hang out and many shops to be visited.  i love the products there. we went to the sportgirl, forever new, K-mar and Myer department store. sportgirl and forever new are my favourite places. at 5 p.m, the mall is closed and we visited Ko Moses house. we are looking for the new kos-kosan right now. his place is a way better than mine, cost more and crowded though. i think im gonna stay here since i dont fit with the family. *first impression* 

for our dinner, tante betty (ibu kos) made us gulai ayam.. kurang greget sih rasay. tapi tetep dimakan. cie icha asked me to go to gym with her! of course i said yes! i dont wanna be fat here. BIG NO!! then me, py and cie icha (my housemate) made an apple pie. delicious!! we talked all night long about some awkward things and about her relationship as well. so fun!!! 

P.S.: i miss my guling! walau udh kempot. untungny udh dikasih selimut yang tebel, jadi ngerasa anget ;o

XXOOX

DAY 2

dear 17 october 2010

i couldn't open my eyes today. i feel so tired and sleepy. well, ko james got to pick me at 9.45.. i have to take shower and breakfast. FYI: as i live in perth, i am going to have meal 3 times a day. its A MUST! new rule from tante betty (ibu kos).. she made me a toasted bread with ham and cheese inside. delicious and fat full.. for my breakfast, i had another oatmeal as well since my mom didnt finish it.

sunday service at Gereja Reform Injili Indonesia, founded by Pdt. Stephen Tong. being honest with you all, i almost fell asleep during the service. i was so daymn sleepy and cant help with it.. thanks God *shouldnt say this anyway*, we were going home at 12 which was earlier.. tante betty brought us to the city in order to have a lunch at the chinese restaurant. we ate various types of dim sum. it tastes good, not like any other chinese restaurant in europe. after we finished, tante has to go back so our team (me, my mom, praisca and her mom) together with ci icha (my friend) and ko james (my friend's boyfriend) went to the kings park. a place where local citizen like to spend their sunday in.. the place is amazing! sejauh mata menandang rumput hijau membentang..

after a tour in kings park and taking photos, we drove to the IGA, sort of super market near como.. we bought some cleaning stuffs. well, i was quite surprise since its a pricy things. cost around 35 AUD (300rb-an) for something that would only cost 100rb in jakarta.. goshh.. our routine activity lately; cleaning the house. so when we arrived at our house, my mom and tante malshia cleaned up the entire house while me and praisca doing stuff with our new room..

another yummy dinner, nasi goreng with soup. :) good ones i believe.. yes, its our energy source before having 2 hours 'night walk' around como.. since we have nothing to do, we decided to walk along the way, finding out what are there near my house.. bumb, with a long stupid talk, we didnt realise that we have been so far. therefore we turned around and spent another couples of minutes in IGA.. me and praisca wanted to cook so badly. IGA is full of fresh food and interesting ones.. feels like heaven. as the beginning, we bought apple pie and planning to make it by tomorrow..

P.S.: i miss my sunday habit!! i need card reader so badly.. cant transfer photos here..


xoxo

DAY 1

Dear, 16 october 2010

today is my first journey to become a lawyer.

it was so difficult to leave my beloved ones in indonesia and those memories. hold on, i carry it along with.. i arrived at the Soekarno-Hatta International Airport around 5 a.m with my whole big family and my true friends (fena, nila, benny and rico. sayang krisna gak bagun tadi pagi). thanks a lot people, you strengthen my way.. =)) i knew i was so mellow since i cried a lot.. i want everything ok so that i dont have to be overthought.. 

transit in Bali for 35 minutes and i was kinda nervous. this is not holiday, im pursuing my dream right now. LIFE IS ROUGH, I SHOULD BE TOUGH. around 2 p.m (waktu perth) i landed at Perth International Airport with an exciting yet unstable emotions. it was so hot, 26'C. i wondered why did albert told me it was around 10'C. eeeerrgg... 

my new home.. my new room..

its not a big house nor a big room. i still like my room more, a way far better than this.. i dont have enough space to put my things. messed-up and dirty; two words best describe my new room.. thus, me and my mom cleaned up this place and packed all my stuff. a bit more settled then.. aaaa, i want my room!! its the best place for me.. 

thanks God my ibu kos is so kind. she loves to give us many healthy and tasty food.. no doubt i would be so fat here since she doesnt allow me to have diet! phew ==" around 6.30, she brought us tour around perth. seeing many wonderful places. yes, it is so different with jakarta. sepi dan gak ada tempat menarik kayak mall dan cafe.. its all about bar and bar.. the wind was totally not friendly.. so cold and we got to walk along the way.. nice though.. despite the fact that this is not holiday. every time i remember this, i feel tertohok.. 

well, i do need to adapt and take some advantages from my brand new surrounding. i know God always give something good for me.. His plan is so wonderful.. 

be blessed.

xxoxx

P.S.: i miss fena a lot today. i feel alone.

JOURNEY TO 

BECOME 

A LAWYER 

my last day in INDO

so the time has come. my last day in indonesia.

i've packed all the things, my room is clean already. 

EMPTY.

im so gonna miss my room, a place where i used to do all my activities.

my best place to share everything.

i wish i could fit with my new room later on :)

i'll bring all memories for 18 years along with me.

it built me and i am my memories.

lets seize our brand new day.

2.5 years is not a long time, as time flies so fast. 

i'll be stronger and wisher.

everything is gonna be ok and i'll find the new ones there.

so long indonesia. i am going to see you again, dont worry.. 

be a better place and wait till i have become "someone".

xxoo

best gift ever

as my farewell gift, benny, rico and krisna gave me a song. 

best i could listen so far, they made it!! thanks guys. 

mungkin hanya selembar kertas, berulang kata
tentang persahabatalun kita di masa lalu
suka dan duka tlah kita jalani bersama
hingga tak terasa waktu akan memisahkan kita

tapi ingatlah kawan kau kan selalu
menjadi seorang terbaik dalam hidupku
perpisahan ini akan selalu menjadi memori terindah
perpisahan ini akan selalu menjadi memori terindah

simple yet tougher

" everything should be God bases. when it is not, trust me it wont work.

whatever the reasons are, you did the wrong things. 

so enough, let her learn herself, you give your best and God do the rest.

just dont ever stop trying, reminding and letting her to think. 

she needs God to show His way. 

be patience because there's always a limit. don't push yourself too hard. 

1. God plan is the most beautiful plan. its wisher than human's will

2. not as we will but as He will "

day 4

i dont know why it still hurts knowing you're doing fine with him.
even worst! my thought is still the same, you both would not fit each other.
and you better step back as a relationship without God as the base, it wont work dear.
TRUST ME!

sorry so sorry

after a few days that we have been through, now i realize why it could happen.
i've been so CRUEL to you, friend. i put aside you in the second place, in fact it should not be!
you're the one who understand me the most, compare with the other friends. i should not be so busy chasing the one who i like to spend my day with, cause at the end i know you are the most valuable. now, its really too late. i cant hold you no more, i let you down and chose the wrong direction. as if i have a second shot, i wont abandon you, wasting you for 1 years, getting fussy with my own stuff.. on the other side right there, you really need for me sure. should i prove my promise that no one can hold you more if i cant do so?

day 3

setiap bangun di pagi hari, rasany saya rela menerima keputusanny.
biarkan dia belajar dari apa yang dia pilih, mungkin salah saya selama 1 tahun trakhir.
memang salah saya. 
i'll always be on your side and give you the best advice so that your eyes are opened up. 
bantu saya Bapa supaya tidak salah mengambil keputusan. 
~GB

friday tears

dear days, 8 october 2010

so this is my first extremely day. all those feeling were mixed together. after a night long full of tears, i couldn't sleep till friday morning picked me up. what a hectic day i got! when i prepared to go sleep (after meet my father and brother), my mom asked me to pack all my stuff. thus, i was not able to hit the bed.  afterward, we went forward to the bank, doctor and some other places. took almost half of my day, my mom pleased me to sleep at the car, but i couldn't. each time i wanna close my eyes, those thoughts were passing around my mind freely and randomly. as if i closed my eyes, tears drop would be the result and i didn't want my mom knew it. 

it was already 4 p.m. and sung has been waiting for me at his campus. the traffic was so terrible and he would not be able to fetch me. fena took me and i met sung at mulia hotel. during my journey, i cried a lot and i got angry with everything i saw. i was so stress and could not take out that feeling. fine, almost arrived at the lobby, i need to relax so that sung would not know what has happened to me. it didn't really work at last. =(

when i met him and he gave me a big smile, i felt 'love', hang around his arm and shed tears. he got confused and asked me whats going on. i cant tell him.. my first one hour journey was full of tears (again), sung could not do anything aside from sooth me down. then he asked me to sleep as he knew i have not got any sleep. i couldnt honsetly. so we decided to sing a long and played with stupid stuff.

7 p.m at the airport, we got to see Albert for the last time (this year). he was going to sydney. =))

as usual, mostly there were boys, only me and praisca who are girls. those boys talked about gadget things which made the two of us did not understand. i felt my eyes very very hurt and i was looking for obat tetes mata.. rp and sulli asked me what happened to my eyes, again i did not want to tell them. i felt guilty the most as i never hiding something to him. well, not for this case. i wanted to keep it for my own.

after albert went inside, we went to emporium as my sister has to picked me up there. we have dinner full of sushi at kiyadon. we felt very very full. to many orders! ihihihi.. the boys were quite insane, ordered a packet of rice and still ate sushi!! eerrrggg, i wish i would have an appetite that much.. thanks to my sister and brother who waited for me till 10 p.m and still looking for martabak that i was craving for.. =) yes they made my day at least.. 

day 1 & day 2

tidak rela dan semakin tidak rela 

make it mine

i feel sorry for what i have done to you.
now i realize that you are the one who understand me a lot and could give me anything i needed..
i feel sorry for making you disappointed.
i feel sorry to let you feel lonely for several months.
now i cant stand upright looking you with a person i hate the most.
if i would have a chance to make an exchanges,
i love to take you away and make you mine for my entire life.

nyeah, i know it sounds so whatever,
if you are in my position, you probably know how it hurts seeing you beloved one from you were a kid till now is taken away by a wrong person.

i love you the most
xxoxx

EVEN BEST FRIEND COULD LIE TO YOU.

IM FAILED TO BE A GOOD FRIEND ~GBU

MY NATIONAL EATING DAY

dear days, 7th October 2010

another day with my beloved friend; & today with fena. i planned to buy a wallet, so i asked her to accompany me going to Grand Indonesia. there are a lot of lovely stores there. im dying for every single store i have visited. it was still 11.30 and fena has come already, 30 minutes earlier from the appointment. you know what? we both felt so hungry. i havent eaten since i woke up, so did her. =( 

just after we parked the car, we rush to the food area. looking for the perfect choice for our lunch, but yeah we ended-up with nothing. i did not have any interest with those foods, nor did fena. she only wanted to eat sushi in which it is not available at GI. therefore, we planned to buy snacks before having lunch at Sushi Tei PI.

'spinning' around GI, went to forever 21, top shop, pull & bear, GAP (looking for sung's cardigan), mango, zara, zenbu, gaudi, coconut island.. all stores were visited by us. so insane i guess; we laughed all the time, talked about dirty things and stupid ones. made all people looking for us and thought we were crazy.. but i enjoy it.. there was a wallet at Forever 21, cost 139k and another one in Top Shop, cost 339k. i wanted the one in Top Shop so badly, but fena asked to think twice. it cost very expensive and i will get bored easily. then i canceled to buy it, going back to Forever 21. again she made me think hard.. eerrgg.. (begini lah kalo belanja sama fena, mikir doank kerjaanny). as a result, i didn't buy anything, but she promised me to go back to GI if i decide to buy it. =)) thanks dear...

lunch time!!! finally.. hosh hosh

for the first time in our history, we ate a few at sushi tei. only 2 blue plates, 1 red plate and 1 white plate.. amzing huh.. we usually ate twice than this.. =@

yes, as we only ate that much, we decided to go around PI-Ex, looking for another tastier foods.. old chang kee, we bought some of it and i like onde-onde so much.. eating while walking around, laughing and talking about the visitors there. semua dikomentarin dan ketawa trus sampe gak ngerasa kenyang. as a dessert, we bought gelato ice cream.. yummy, chocolate and macademia!! well, she finished it all as i didnt really want ice cream. yeah, right now, i only eat what i want so bad. *supaya ga nyesel* 

after we went home, i took out another cheese cake and ice cream cake from my refrigerator.. fena said she was full and wont be able to bite any slice of cake. the truth spoke, she ate more than me.. 2 pieces of cheese cake. mine was eaten by her as well.. and made another cup of coffee. gosh.. i thought today is my national eating day.. very bery full, after a long sharing and talked at my room, we suddenly felt asleep.. after we woke up, mom gave us another foods, lumpia and lasagna!! gosh, she loves to give us food i guess.

-THANK YOU MY DEAREST FRIEND FOR FILLING MY DAY

& BOOM!

ohmaigosh.

what a word could describe such a good friends like praisca and sung? :)

today, in almost a boring day for me, they both came to my house, having some fun.

well, sung has made a plan to go with me watching a movie and lunch at Fish&Co PP. as it was too early (still 10 o'clock), we decided to stay at my house, playing the laptop till praisca came. the plan was going to Ratu Plaza, installing programs for her brand new laptop, mac pro 15".. 

we realised that we got an IT boy, sung!! no need to go there.. he installed those advance programs for free.. again and again, time flew so fast. didn't know that it was almost 2 p.m. and we haven't got our lunch.. packing all the stuff and straight forward to PP.. while we went to our destination, sulli asked to watch a movie at puri. definitely yes for us =))

sung helped me and praisca a lot today, so we both decided to treated him a free lunch.. ahahah.. nyeahh, not free actually. he refused and insisted to pay.. eeerrrggg.... okeh, time to go to puri. we went outside PP and saw that the traffic was so terribly su**. it took almost 1 hour to go outside SCBD.. no more time to reach a movie at 16.30.. turned around and went back to PP. watching the stupidest movie for this months; the other guys. tralalalala.. 

afterward, i was driven back home before sung goes to sulli's. yeahhh, there was a barrier which is traffic.. took another 30 minutes from PP to reach my house. deaannngggg.. thus, sung and praisca stayed for another 2 hours in my house; downloading, making a new e-mail and chatting.. we have prepared for the worst, if the traffic is still unfriendly, they both are going to stay a night in my house. DEAL!! while packing all the stuffs, sung suddenly make a silly statement; "see you in 15 minutes. kalo gw klakson tandany gw nginep rumah lu ya." oh gosh, me and praisca couldn't stop laughing.. 

it was so fun and be thankful for all, including the over portion of Fish&Co. 

made us very full and hardly to walk..

thanks guys.. you both made my day

xxoo

ice cream

ICE CREAM NEVER DIES.

part of me

rough and tough

A love to leave loved ones for, 

a love to cross oceans for, 

but I’d like to believe, if I ever were to feel it, 

that I’d have the courage to seize it. 

– Letters to Juliet

boring

in the middle of my emotional night:

im passionate for this heels :| 

so sick

i feel sick of those boys

they talk more than they should be

gosh....

is it me who are too sensitive? 

is it me who close my heart for other boys?

i love taking part of your adventure, but i would never ready to let you have a new one

i never knew the beginning
never know how's the ending too

11 : 11

Maybe 11:11 comes twice 'cause we all need second chances.

head downs

di saat kamu ingin melepaskan seseorang
      ingatlah pada saat kamu ingin mendapatkanny
di saat kamu mulai tidak mencintainy
      ingatlah saat pertama kamu jatuh cinta padany
di saat kamu mulai bosan denganny
      ingatlah selalu saat terindah bersamany
di saat kamu ingin menduakanny
      bayangkan jika dia selalu setia
saat kamu ingin membohonginy 
       ingatlah di saat dia jujur padamu

maka kamu akan merasakan arti dia untukmu,

jangan sampai di saat dia sudah tidak di sisimu. 

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grow up

GSRI-KB

         a church where i grew up

today, 3rd october 2010

my last sunday service in GSRI-KB.

it was so sad, i cried all the way long during the service. 

why it could be happened?

my grandfahter took place in the construction of this church. 

my grandmother was the majelis for several years.

my mother and father are the doctor for this church.

my mother and father were married at GSRI-KB.

my elder sister used to be so active in the youth.

when I was a baby, I handed over to the Lord Jesus in this church.

i joined in the sunday school,

i did dance and sing to praise the Lord.

i learned how to read bible and how to pray as well in sunday school. 

start to serve the Lord when i attended Persekutuan Remaja I.

i was baptized in this church by Pdt. I Made Mastra.

i knew how great Jesus is from this church.

i got my best friends who is my sister as well from this church. 

i knew how to work in an organisation from this church.

i was able to speak out loud in front of many people, from this church.

EVERYTHING COMES FROM THIS CHURCH..

and now, i am about to leave 

dengan keadaan yang sedang acak-acakan. remaja yang sedang mundur dan krisis.

i feel guilty though i have nothing to give anymore.

my time is limited.

tempat yang gak mungkin gw lupain, tempat di mana semua memori itu ada buat gw.

mimbar gw bisa berdiri untuk pertama kaliny membaca puisi natal. 

piano tempat gw main untuk memuji Tuhan.

mimbar buat gw mimpin liturgi dan panggung untuk gw jadi singer.

kursi kayu tempat gw dengerin Firman Tuhan. 

kakak-kakak pemuda yang selalu membimbing gw selama 3 tahun trakhir. 

i dont know whether i would have another 'home-church' in perth or not.

nothing can compare to GSRI-KB

i will miss fena, nila, ana, eda, kitty, elias, benny, krisna, and others. 

this is tough, so tough until i cant handle my tears. 

thanks for everything people

be blessed and make it happen

LOVE

xx