friday tears

dear days, 8 october 2010

so this is my first extremely day. all those feeling were mixed together. after a night long full of tears, i couldn't sleep till friday morning picked me up. what a hectic day i got! when i prepared to go sleep (after meet my father and brother), my mom asked me to pack all my stuff. thus, i was not able to hit the bed.  afterward, we went forward to the bank, doctor and some other places. took almost half of my day, my mom pleased me to sleep at the car, but i couldn't. each time i wanna close my eyes, those thoughts were passing around my mind freely and randomly. as if i closed my eyes, tears drop would be the result and i didn't want my mom knew it. 

it was already 4 p.m. and sung has been waiting for me at his campus. the traffic was so terrible and he would not be able to fetch me. fena took me and i met sung at mulia hotel. during my journey, i cried a lot and i got angry with everything i saw. i was so stress and could not take out that feeling. fine, almost arrived at the lobby, i need to relax so that sung would not know what has happened to me. it didn't really work at last. =(

when i met him and he gave me a big smile, i felt 'love', hang around his arm and shed tears. he got confused and asked me whats going on. i cant tell him.. my first one hour journey was full of tears (again), sung could not do anything aside from sooth me down. then he asked me to sleep as he knew i have not got any sleep. i couldnt honsetly. so we decided to sing a long and played with stupid stuff.

7 p.m at the airport, we got to see Albert for the last time (this year). he was going to sydney. =))

as usual, mostly there were boys, only me and praisca who are girls. those boys talked about gadget things which made the two of us did not understand. i felt my eyes very very hurt and i was looking for obat tetes mata.. rp and sulli asked me what happened to my eyes, again i did not want to tell them. i felt guilty the most as i never hiding something to him. well, not for this case. i wanted to keep it for my own.

after albert went inside, we went to emporium as my sister has to picked me up there. we have dinner full of sushi at kiyadon. we felt very very full. to many orders! ihihihi.. the boys were quite insane, ordered a packet of rice and still ate sushi!! eerrrggg, i wish i would have an appetite that much.. thanks to my sister and brother who waited for me till 10 p.m and still looking for martabak that i was craving for.. =) yes they made my day at least..