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open your eyes. couldnt you see??

im just the opposite of ordinary. 

watch your words and steps.

im a bitch when i wanna be. 

im freakin out with my score.. CIB the most!! 

last december wish

- HD or at least D for CIB report
- HD for Management group report
- well-organised presentation for CIB with D as the score

oh God, help me please..
i really need a good good score.

thanks :)

MAKAN day

could be said as the best Sunday ever?
generally speaking, it was eating day..

we have been planning to make martabak terang bulan last sunday at ce asri's house. we (me, py, cynthia and kiki) wanted it desperately. *sluruupp* after the sunday service, we are served with KFC and each one of us took one portion. but i guess kiki got two. LOL.

it didnt take a long time for us to get the ingredients at cynthia's homestay and went straight to ce asri's house. there were four of us, ce asri, ko leo, ce lhilis and yopy who excitingly made terang bulan.. yummy.. while waiting for the adonan (took almost 1 hour), we watched DVD - king of fighter. the movie was kinda weird, cynthia fell asleap and most of us did not know what was the story. we were accompanied with many kacang-kacangan and none of us stop eating. ehehehe... 

what a successful martabak terang bulan.. it was freakin good. perhaps because it has been a long time we didnt taste it. and most of all, its home made and the receipt came from US. LOL.. anyway, we made 4 loyang. the first and third ones consists of chocolate, peanut, milk and cheese. the second and fourth ones, which is the most successful is without cheese, special order for me =) YUMMY.. ROFTL

we were done with martabak, ko leo and ce asri took their turn. they made garlic bread and pasta. and as you have predicted, all of us ate it.. yehaaaa... i dont know why, the others were starting to tease me - replacing cc joan's place. they gave a lot of food and convinced me to get all the maknyus foods that i wanted. *deaannnggg*..

at last, we ended-up at mcd south perth to have our next next next dinner after planning about many things within a week, before i leave for sure. crabbing, camping, eating. all of them.. yihuuu.. i love today. it was fun and all the blessings flew eternally.

P.S.: i dont know what i was writing. couldnt be more concentrate. sorry :s 

two eyes and one heart

perhaps because this story is in indonesian, so it sounds kinda weird. but when you read each word and feel it, you know why i posted this. 

Boy adalah seorang cowo yang menjadi buta karena sebuah kecelakaan..
Sejak ia menjadi buta ia merasa terasing dari lingkungannya..
Ia merasa tidak ada seorang pun yang memperhatikan atau menyayanginya..

Hingga kemudian hadirlah Girl dalam hidupnya..
Girl sangat sayang dan perhatian pada Boy..
Ia tidak pernah mempermasalahkan kebutaan Boy sebagai suatu kekurangan yang berarti..
Ia sungguh-sungguh mencintai Boy dengan tulus...

Suatu hari berkatalah Boy kepada
Girl..

B : Girl...mengapa kamu begitu menyayangiku..?

G: hmmm..entahlah..aku tidak pernah tau alasan mengapa aku begitu menyayangimu.. yang aku tahu..aku benar-benar tulus menyayangimu

Boy (tersenyum)

B : tapi..aku kan buta..apa yg bisa aku perbuat untukmu..? apa yg bisa aku berikan buatmu..?

G : Boy..aku tidak mengharap apapun darimu..buatku..kamu bisa ceria setiap hari dan menyayangiku dengan tulus itu sudah cukup.. aku senang ketika kau merasa senang..

B : (terharu) belum pernah ada orang yang begitu menyayangi aku yang buta seperti ini..

G : (menggenggam tangan Boy sambil tersenyum)

B : Girl..kalo sampai suatu saat nanti aku bisa melihat lagi..aku pasti akan menikahimu.. karena hanya kamu satu-satunya orang yang dengan tulus menyayangiku...

G : benarkah..?

B : iya..aku janji..kalau suatu saat nanti aku bisa melihat, PASTI aku akan menikahimu..

G : (terharu) terima kasih Boy.. aku sangat menyayangimu...

B : (tersenyum) ya..aku tahu itu..aku juga sangat menyayangimu Girl..

singkat cerita..
Boy melakukan operasi cangkok mata dan berhasil.. ia mampu melihat lagi..
Ia pun tidak sabar untuk segera menemui Girl..

Pergilah ia mencari Girl..
sampai ia berhasil menemukannya...
Namun...
alangkah terkejutnya ia mengetahui bahwa ternyata Girl adalah seorang gadis buta..
Ia tidak bisa menerimanya..Ia pun menolak Girl ..
Ia lupa akan semua janjinya...

G : Boy..bukankah kamu sudah berjanji akan menikah denganku..?

B : ummm....(bimbang) ya memang aku pernah berkata begitu..tapi tidak dengan keadaanmu yg seperti ini..

G : Bagaimana mungkin kamu mengingkari janjimu sendiri..? bukankah kau bilang hanya aku satu-satunya orang yang menyayangimu..?

B : eeeerr...maaf Girl..tapi aku tidak bisa menikah dengan gadis buta..maaf..

Boy pun pergi meninggalkan Girl..

Girl yang kecewa dan merasa dikhianati memilih untuk bunuh diri..

Saat ia ditemukan meninggal.. ada sepucuk surat disakunya..

"Dear Boy...
Memang tidak banyak yg bisa aku berikan padamu..

tidak banyak yg bisa aku lakukan untukmu...
Namun..aku sungguh-sungguh tulus menyayangimu...
Semoga kedua mataku itu bisa berguna bagimu..

bisa membawakan terang dan keceriaan dalam hidupmu kembali.."

~Kadang kala kita tidak boleh melihat sesuatu hanya dengan mata..

melainkan juga dengan hati kita..
Mata itu bisa menipu..namun hati tidak..
kata hati selalu merupakan kejujuran terdalam dalam hidup manusia..~

 

hey boy, read this!

If a girl cries in front of you, 

it means that she couldn't take it anymore...

If you take her hand, 

she would stay with you for the rest of your life; 

if you let her go, she couldn't go back

to being herself anymore...

A girl wont cry easily, 

Except in front of the person who she love the most, 

she becomes weak..

A girl wont cry easily, 

only when she loves you the most, 

she put down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you

please hold her hands firmly,

she's the one who would stay with you 

for the rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you,

please dont give her up, 

maybe because of your decision, you ruin her life.

When she cries right in front of you,

when she cries because of you, 

Look into her eyes, 

Can you see and feel the pain and hurt she's feeling?

Think....

Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity, 

In front of you, and because of you?

She cries not because she is weak, 

She cries not because she want sympathy or pity,

She cries because crying silently is no longer possible, 

the pain, hurt, and agony have become too big a burden 

to be kept inside...

Guys, Think about it...!!!!!!!!!!!

2 years ago with love

If  I told you before......

Would you understand...?

If  I told you after....

Would you obey.....?

Happy Birthday To You....

            Young Lady, now you're 17 years old.  What I can give maybe it’s not what you want, it’s not what you dessire, it’s not what you’ve been dreaming, it’s not what you’ve hoped from me.  I can’t give you car, mac book air, etc.  I only want to give you a big smile, a big hug, a big Love, and lots of wish that your dream come true.

WAIT! It’s NOT what you want!

But it’s what GOD wants from your life.  HE really has the greatest plan ever for your LIFE!

Once again, what you need is.......

Sit down and LISTEN to the LORD...

Do what ever HE wanted from you!

Then you’ll receive THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIFT in the whole world

xoxo

• Boy: You know what?
• Girl: What?
• Boy: Next time i see you, don't wear that skirt again, it's too revealing
• Girl: Why? I thought you loved that skirt
• Boy: Next time, wear something that reaches to your ankles
• Girl: Ok whatever
• Boy: A dress that reaches to your ankles.. and wear long white gloves that reach to your elbows
• Girl: What?
• Boy: Trust me
• Girl: What are you trying to do? Hide me from everyone?
• Boy: Do up your hair as well real pretty
• Girl: Are You listening to what i'm saying? You're so conservative, don't choke me like this... Are you kidding me?
• Boy: I'm dead serious.
• Girl: You know i dont like guys who boss me around
• Boy: ... Wear a veil
• Girl: ... what?
• Boy: Wear this ring too
• Girl: ....
• Boy: Marry Me

i feel relief

I FEEL RELIEF... RRRREEEELLLLLIIIIIIEEEFFFF... 

so long accounting managerial mid-exam. hope i got a high score. pleaseeee.... 

thanks God for the highest score in BIS and HD for CIB.. never imagined i could have that scores. 

im done with CIB second assignment. although im totally not sure with the content and structure, i've tried to give my best. *not really sih*

another thanks for my friends for the greatest night in a week. spending my night in McD with chit and chat. talking about so many things, laughing and getting to know them more and more. oh yaa, we got a new friend yesterday, Angel. hihihihi.. semoga dia gak kapok ke GPdI setelah melihat kegilaan saya, py, cynthia dan kiki.. 

THANKS GOD FOR:


- PROTECTING ME DAY BY DAY
- GOOD SCORES SO FAR
- SENDING ME FRIEND WHO ACCOMPANIES ME THROUGH THE WHOLE DAY
- SPIRIT TO SEIZE MY DAY

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING :*

13 hari lagi saya pulang...

HORE

start over

thats the only thing to 're-build' your personality.
its almost the end of 2010. i gotta make my resolution (is it the word?).
first come to account, forgiveness. the most difficult thing to do. gosh, i cant be fake. that's good somehow. yet, it can easily hurt other people. pretending to like someone or something that i dont are the most 'challenging' things. my actions, words and eyes cant lie.

BE POSITIVE. no more worrying and overthinking. God has His perfect will, awesome plan and un-compareable way. i should be in His path and everything would be settled. the most possible way is to get close with Him, be grateful and thankful. HORE =))


ohyes, the most ridiculous thing. DIET. stop diet.. many people said im not that fat. but my thought has been build. i always need to be slimmer and slimmer. it becomes addictive. something that is very difficult to be stopped. im afraid of being anorexia. but i guess i've become one of them :s

theres definitely something wrong with my brain.
im worried to much. more than anyone else does, i guess.
im afraid about my future.
im worried about myself.
im doubting about my life.
yes, im perfectionist.
yes, i wanna look good.
yes, i wanna be the best.
yes, im gonna live my dream.
and of course, im traumatic!!!

i dont wanna be in the second place. not anymore.
im not a little girl, though i wanna look like it.
i used to be so strong, like the coral reef. why it doesnt last?
im tired for being so lame.

help me someone.
take me out from this circumstance.
teach me how to enjoy life!
how not to worry so much. 
teach me how to be grateful with what i've got.
with something that i own.
things that God has created for me. 

PERTH SEPIII

hey hey, has the world changed? hihihi..

it has been a long time i didnt post anything yet. actually there were so many interesting events that have been happened within a week..

now, most of my friends were leaving back to indonesia. yeah, they went to bali first before separated to their own hometown. envy them.. =(

so before they leaved to indo, an outing, bbq at millpoint was held. it was totally awesome, felt so wonderful spending my time with them, getting to know new friends. around 6.15 chiki picked me and praisca. when we arrived, there were only kiki, grace, reggy and ronny. the rest havent come yet. it begun with singing and sharing time, talk about what do ya feel that day and what do ya wish for this youth.. eating time was the peak =)) beef, chicken, pork, calamari, sausage and kangaroo meat. so delicious i could die. *sudah lama tidak bbq bareng teman*

after we done with our marvellous bbq, another freezing gelare large waffle was waitting. i wanted it so badly and tadaaaaaa.. yummy =) thank youuuuuu for taking me there. *sluruuuppp*

H-1 for them, we still hang out to a cafe i dont know the name. lol.. oh yess, it december already!! lovely december :* getting closer to come back home. actually, the nearer the day, the more stress i am. i desperately wanna go home. huhu.. i miss my family, my boys, my girls and my room.. it fits perfectly for me.

i dont know why, it was so nice hanging around with them, but i felt like something missing. i couldnt stand with 'silent' things. they rarely speak, even if they do so, they talked to someone they are closed to. i want something WOW, something that make me laugh no matter what i feel that time. i guess we are going to work it out someday and somehow. still thank God for sending me such a great friends.

 BANANA SMOOTHIES :3

stupidity 

according to kiki statement, kebaktian sangat sepi, kyk malam kudus. there were only 10 people who come to youth. well, the topic surprised me a lot. december kelabu. i didnt know such that things could happen. so scared to death.. how if im part of it? dinner at yummy house with 10 friends of mine. we talked, we laughed. hihhihi. so fun, unordinary, they didnt stop talking :) this is what i want, continuously topics. 3 times in a row i go to GPdI, including today 'kebaktian doa' and tomorrow sunday service..