saddest sunday

hello my lovely blog. havent touched you for several days.. 

today is the first of august 2010; means i only got 3 months left!
desperately sad of it..

im not ready and each time i remember day-to-day imma pass by,  

im affraid..

so scared when i feel happy. 

cause all the good things come to end.. 

and i dont want it to be happened. 

it is diffcult to close my eyes when the night has come. im scare not to be alive tomorrow, scare of loosing my current happines, scare of loosing you. 

as the sun rises, they change, happiness is about to fade. i love the way they touch me, i love the way they make me laugh, i love the warmth of sun shine, i love the fresh air, i love the traffic jam, i love your care, i love each time we've been through. I ADORE PERFECTION!

i hate overthought, the way i was shaped. hell yeah.. 

im an overthough person. 

i think a lot and do nothing. the most patetic side is i cant help myself!! 

who could handle me? im looking for you! come save me.